STORIES– MYEE HARLOW

Mar 12, 2019

SACRED CIRCLE

Sacred Circle Artwork

Forming of a scared circle

There has been something I have been working on and processing for a while now, something that I have been intuitively guided to but have spent many hours in contemplation attempting to put all the pieces of the puzzle together before I shared any further.

The place that I have come to today is - Oh Myee just keep sharing! It will flow naturally like the great river of life, it will guide you each step of the way, throw perfection to the wind….

The pieces of the puzzle will never fully be assembled, we are works in progress, beautiful works in progress and sometimes we stop ourselves from experiencing fully and completely by wanting to know all the answers. The truth is the answers will never be found completely, they are not supposed to be, we live in the great mystery, the great unknown, a place of multi-dimensions and realities and what might be my beliefs is certainly not someone else's.

This week for me is about heating up that firey sword and slicing out anything that does not serve me anymore, searing closed old wounds ready to step forward into the next chapter of learning, adventure, love, joy, sharing and being present in life.

So back to what I have been working on and bringing to life - A place for sharing, a passing down of stories and ancient wisdom, creating a scared circle that empowers the feminine on this planet. A place where women can learn, touch into their creative abilities and sensual natures to become grounded within themselves and what they have to offer on this planet at this moment and moving forward.

The further I went into the process of how I would dream this vision into life, the more I realised that I didn't just want to share women's stories and women’s wisdom, I want to be part of a journey that helps create balance once again on this planet. To honour women and their wisdom we also need to honour men. We are here to guide each other, care for each other and hold sacred space. Like the beautiful and miraculous dance between man and woman that creates the life of another, we need to allow this beauty to spill out and overflow into all aspects of life and creation. The sacred union of man and woman once more, standing side by side as equals but also celebrated for their vast differences. Walking a path of raw and open truth, shared from a heart space, guiding the way for our children and future children still to be born.

So now what I thought I wanted to create has changed immensely as my perception and intuition has been honed. In the meantime, I will keep sharing my words as the process unfolds and I birth my vision into the material.

A little something I wrote the other day on connection…..

As we share our sacred hearts.

I share with you without words, I share with you my deep essence as you share with me yours. Behind the masks, beneath the layers peeled away, beyond life’s conditioning and free from my beliefs and yours.

We stare into each other's eyes, two hearts unite seared in the sacred fire. Forming a connection of souls that is both piercing and gentle, creating the channel to the great spirit and the infinite universe.

I am here with you as you are here with me, we are here together, to walk side by side and hand in hand sharing our gifts to the world.

Eternal Flame Artwork

This is a short film that a friend shared with me just after I had come to realise that my perception had completely shifted. I find it endlessly fascinating that when you align to your path things just fall right in front of you. Just like signposts for the journey ahead.

Jan 26, 2019

DADARRI

A powerful and gentle message from spirit.

After spending time in ceremony and reflection with the full moon this week I had some questions that my heart needed answers for, deeply personal questions that would support the path of my families healing.

As some of you know, I left my partner of 11 years over a year ago now and with this comes a time of healing for all involved. A mending of broken hearts and a calling and remembering of all parts of ourselves to find their way home once again.

My children have been so resilient through the process but as a mother, you can see their deep unexpressed hurt over the loss of what they knew as family. My son Nalu has his quiet way of processing, he goes in and it takes time, presence and stillness for him to express his feelings. My daughter Akina is always full of expression and for her, she chooses outward emotions and the fight. Lately, the fight has become somewhat destructive and I needed to find a new way in, past the walls and back into her heart.

I asked spirit for guidance and what I have uncovered this week is something that I am truly grateful to share, a gift that has been given to me and I didn’t even realise until now the significance it has for our human race.

Spirit gave me the word DADARRI

I found that dadirri is an aboriginal word meaning, inner, deep listening and quiet, still awareness. It is a 'tuning in' experience with the specific aim to come to a deeper understanding of the beauty of nature. Dadirri recognises the inner spirit that calls us to reflection and contemplation of the wonders of all of creation. It is a deep listening for truth beyond physical words and their logical meaning. It is the way to hear, with the soul.

After being totally blown away by what I was being shown I realised that this was exactly what I had been practising for the past year to heal myself.

After the separation of our family, I was looking for a new home for myself and my children, I knew it had to be a place of magic were we could come to heal and connect. When my friends home came up for rent I was instantly drawn to take a look. The house is tucked away in nature, surrounded by the sounds of the ocean, the trees and the animals. When I went to have a look for the first time I could feel the land calling me to listen, it was an instant sense of peace that I had not felt for a long time. At that moment I knew I was home.

After we moved in the land started to weave her magic, she was bringing me back to self, the more I listened the more I could hear and in the stillness and deep connection to the great mother I was able to start calling back all the pieces of myself. The long forgotten ones that had been discarded, the beautiful and creative ones and also the shamed and shunned ones, and through this process my channel to spirit came flooding back to me. I was starting to feel whole once more, I felt heard and held and I could again feel my connection to all of life.

Back then I was shown how to help Akina process her strong emotions, I was given a clear vision of her channel and the blockages and I was shown her greatest healing would come from her ability to find stillness in nature. I was guided to do an energy healing on her and for me, this was not something I had ever done before. I was told just trust, that I would know what to do when it was time. So one day when Akina was upset and there was no one else home we set her up all comfortable on the day bed outside. I brought my crystals and from there I was intuitively guided on the process. I must admit that it was a bit strange at first but my word was trust, so trust I did. After I finished, her beautiful and now calm and peaceful face arose with a smile that was shining with love. She looked at me and said mummy I feel really good. Mummy you are really good at this, you should do it for other people.

Looking back now this was spirits first attempt to show me how to practice Dadarri with my children and it was through my own fear and doubt of all the visions that I was being shown at the time that I slowly once again starting turning down my own channel to spirit.

Now with the stirrings of another full moon, and listening to the call of my heart I have been able to tap back into the stillness and through this, I know deeply what my family needs. This week Akina and I have started once more on the path of the deep connection with nature and with this, I can see her walls are coming down. The light is returning and our bond is being restored.

Dadirri is a gift that not only my family needs but a gift that our whole planet needs. We as humans suffer through and cause so much trauma and this trauma is passed on through generations unless it is heard, healed and acknowledged. The greatest gift we can give to our children is to heal ourselves.

Dadirri is something that needs to be taught and shared with all of us, the ability not only to listen deeply to nature and ourselves but to also listen deeply to others. To stop and to completely be present in the moment with someone, to bear witness to what they need to express with out judgment or opinion, or trying to fix and mend. Just to deeply listen. Through this, we can heal and through this healing, we can heal the land that is waiting for us to come back to our remembrance of what humans are on this planet for.

"I will listen to you, share with you, as you listen to, share with me… Our shared experiences are different, but in the inner deep listening to, and quiet, still awareness of each other, we learn and grow together. In this we create community, and our shared knowledge(s) and wisdom are expanded from our communication with each other." Judy Atkinson

This is a Ted Talk that explains beautifully how DADARRI can help our families, our country, our planet heal from the passed down trauma of generations past and present.

Sep 30, 2018

TRUST

Over the last 6 months, I have learnt so much about this short but extremely precious and powerful word. I have learnt what it means to my heart and how I am able to experience deep trust even when I’m in the unknown.

Going into the unknown was the only path there was for me, I had to jump feet first into the void as I let go of all that didn’t serve me anymore. This is not a new thing for a Sagittarius but this time it was. It was time to do things differently, it was not time to shoot my arrow and just hope for the best. This time, I had to stop and face my fears, I had to stop and process all the emotions that were often disguised by shooting another arrow off into the distance.

I have always been great at taking risks and manifesting, jumping and then picking up whatever pieces needed to be picked up along the way. I have always done things in this fast manner. Maybe it has something to do with with the fact that I have all the mutable signs of the zodiac in my chart, with not a lot of earth to go along with it. The joke between a friend of mine is that I have five heads and a horses arse. Meaning that I have a Sagittarius sun, a Pisces moon and a Gemini rising. No wonder I have always found it hard to sit still and ground myself!

Waiting for things is not how I usually like to go about my life, I have always pushed and chased and been the one to manifest and create, sometimes manifesting without fully understanding the outcome I might be headed for. It also makes it a little harder when I often get a clear vision from spirit. In my past, I would push towards these visions not realising that they were there to teach me trust and patience. It was due to my lack of self-worth that I would push instead of allowing things to unfold in divine timing.

It was not until I was faced with some serious heartbreak this year that I was able to see this part of myself. I needed to have things shattered so that I could learn how to put all those pieces back together in a new way. I learnt that it was time to be still, it was time to go in, to look at all the forgotten and neglected parts of myself and in those parts and in the stillness I found the gold.

I found how slow could dance with fast and how together they create a magical union that makes a whole. A whole inside myself, I found all the parts again and now it was time to master them.

I have now learnt all good things are worth waiting for and sometimes when I shoot my arrows I miss the gold that is in the moment. I have a very special person to thank for this lesson, well many lessons actually. It’s beautiful how old friends can be the bearers of the greatest gifts.

Throughout the process of creating my new life and finding my way through the unknown I have always had this little voice, it would keep saying to me TRUST, over and over again. Even when I had no idea how things would fall into place. This little voice came from my heart, it was teaching me to wait, be still, to be patient, to heal myself.

I still have the push inside me and I think that it is also a necessary part of who I am. After all, I am a woman and women are here as the life givers and sometimes we don’t have a choice but to push, like when it’s time for that baby to come out you have no choice in the matter, you have to push! I feel the role of the feminine is like that in many other aspects of life, she can see when it’s time for things to be birthed or brought to the surface. This is her role, what she is divinely designed to do on this planet and to often this is lost or forgotten in a society that is controlled by the patriarchy and likes things to come in neat little polite packages.

So what I have learnt about the magical little word trust, is my greatest gift so far, I have learnt to trust in life and myself, I have come to the understanding that I have a balance that allows me to go with the flow in any given moment, some moments are for the slow - patience, healing, growth and taking time to find direction and a path of clarity. Other moments are for fire, rebirth and a good hard push, maybe accompanied by the primal sounds of a wild woman who knows who she is and has the power, softness and self-love to create the change that is required.

Sep 10, 2018

MYEE - THE BOGONG MOTH

Like all moths I have been drawn to an external light for most of my life, searching for something outside of me to fill my cup, to make me feel whole again. It has only been in the last year, after taking a huge leap of faith to create a new life, a life that I could feel calling me, did I realise that the light I was searching for was always within.

To get to this place it took some hard lessons, deep digging, sitting in stillness and going in to uncover all that had been under lock and key. My greatest teacher has been the earth or the Great Mother and all her creatures, through this connection I have come to the place that I call home, the place of shining my own light.

Here is some of the Aboriginal Dreamtime story of Myee, I now thank my mother for the blessing of this name and the message that it held.

Bogong Moth was once brightly coloured like the native wildflowers. Ignoring her husband’s advice, she went to explore the mysterious white mountain in the distance. As she neared her destination, snow fell, trapping her. Spring came and as the snow thawed, Myee the Bogong Moth was released. Taking flight, her bright and vibrant colours remained, soaking into the snow and earth, leaving her brown. Where this snow melted, beautiful spring flowers emerged.

What an image this story creates, leading to the question –
what beauty comes from something you might have lost or let go of?

As Myee the Bogong Moth journeyed new song lines, be prepared to take flight and explore unknown territory yourself! Following your heart has its risks. Or maybe you will unexpectedly change your colour, as our sister Bogong did. Or leave your mark – in many ways Bogong Moth is a symbol of artists as much as explorers. Life will certainly offer a challenge, will you accept?

Sep 10, 2018

OH, BUT MY DARLING WHAT IF YOU FLY

Well, this is all pretty new for me, I’m not normally the one in photographs, I usually hide in the background or behind the lens, but not any longer as I thought it was time to face up to my fear. So I’m taking the advice of my heart and I’m ready…….

What if I fall?
Oh, but my darling.
What if you Fly?

It has taken me weeks to write this, so I thought if I was going to share I may as well go all the way!

When I paint it is my inner woman, It’s an expression of my freedom to be who I am. Instinctively wild and free, a mother, a teacher, a creator. Like the volcano that erupts with great force and also the ashes that fall to caress the earth like the gentle hands of a mother or a lover.

Ever changing and not bound by rules, taken places by the whisper of the wind, the flow of a river or the power of the ocean.

For many years I let this part of me sit quiet hidden away from the world, conforming to society’s rules of woman. Undervaluing my gift and what I came to offer. We all have a calling and a gift and it speaks to us as children and in many cases, it gets lost or trodden on before it has the chance to flower. The gift is always there to be found and sometimes the hard road is what brings us back to this gift.

After many years of hiding from my creativity, although I was being creative I was not being vulnerable or honest in my creativity. My artwork is at the core of this. I chose many other creative endeavours before I came back to the place that I call home.

I still remember the beautiful words of a friend and you know in a lifetime you only get a special few that really see you and you see them. “Myee why are you doing fashion you are an artist that is who you are” At the time those words where only half heard but they where held onto dearly and tightly waiting for the right moment when I would find my courage, power and self-love.

Abstract painting is what I am drawn to most and through this process, I feel like I become the channel, sometimes I may have a directors role and other times I just follow. Just like the ebb and flow of Mother Nature – Never fixed.
My paintings take on a life of their own and have a message for the viewer. We are instinctively drawn to what we need and artwork can help with this process whether it’s gently and subtly or whether it has the feeling of intense fire that is preparing for rebirth. Whatever the message it is true for you.

So here I am on my journey taking each moment as it comes and learning to share my gift and my beauty to the world.

Blog posts & pages

STORIES

SACRED CIRCLE

DADARRI

TRUST

MYEE - THE BOGONG MOTH

OH, BUT MY DARLING WHAT IF YOU FLY